101 JusLi'at

a normal night.midnite technically. me in my room. lights off. surfin net. lisnin to fm. gran opens door. im surprised she wasnt shocked.anyway v hav a chit chat abt d neighbour nt lockin the door.now y would v be bothered.unless d neighbour was our tenant :P
it was me who locked d door finally.
dats how it happened.
i opened d door.
lovely cool breeze.made me want to rush up to the terrace n lie there staring up at d sky for hours.
but u know grannies. never understand teenagers.*sigh*
back 2 my room.
Dats wen i started thinkin of all the stuff i Love & all that i Plan to do in Future ::

1. sunrise


2. speeding in a car at nite on a highway... preferably the guy driving:)


3. barbeque party


4. once again to jaisalmer & camp out all nite


5. get back all the good ol' times - aah.. im feeling all nostalgic already.


6. take a long walk with Someone :) holding hands n talking all the way


7. road trip


8. release a music album


9. sand dunes


10. buy a house in whitefield (b'lore)


11. world tour


12. direct a film


13. beach house


14. never having to regret anything


15. making the right decisions


16. be loved always


17. grade 8 in theory of music


18. play the guitar


19. harmonica


20. drums


21. having frends around all the time


22. left alone when i need to be


23. oh.. almost fergot this one .......become a pro at the keyboard


24. IIM-A


25. fall madly in love


26. enter my film in the Cannes


27. publish my life... it has too many funny incidents


28. my biography becoming a bestseller


29. developed india


30. broad minded society


31. teddy bears


32. blabbering n entertaining ppl :P


33. launch my very own brand


34. taste every non-indian dish made (except snakes, rats, blah.. blah..)


35. get into good shape :P


36. never having to think twice about spending


37. meet all d ppl ive known, again after 25 years
    


38. reunions & gettogethers.. in other words


39. oor suthifying


40. lying on dad's lap (or mom's or granparents')


41. always having nice memories to think back on


42. deep sleep


43. dreams :)


44. watching the sky


45. Sexy cars


46. knowing how much ur worth to ppl 'round u


47. being spontaneous


48. getting drunk jus fer d heck of it


49. knowing the right things to say


50. know what is to happen the next moment


51. live till im healthy


52. 'crush'ing Someone


53. happy endings


54. free coupons at the salon


55. surprises


56. gifts


57. kids


58. babies


59. bright colours


60. a genuine smile


61. caring words


62. 'advice' from certain ppl


63. knowing ppl care


64. late night chats


65. new hairdo' s


66. flawless smooth skin


67. flowing thoughts


68. christmas


69. chocolate mousse


70. chinese food


71. dining out


72. dark chocolate


73. actually anything chocolatey


74. to fly


75. shiny silky hair


76. waking up knowing ur in ur 80's, alive n still having someone to wake up next to...


77. window shopping


78. sailing


79. a successful businesswoman


80. free flowing thoughts


81. compliments


82. knowing Mom's always there ...


83. getting hi' on anything.
    


84. switching on the tv jus in time for my favorite program


85. hearing all my fav songs one after another on FM


86. rain


87. dewdrops


88. greenery


89. watch every episode of F.R.I.E.N.D.S.


90. a.r.rahman


91. old songs


92. should learn to dance :P


93. instumentals


94. meaningful lyrics


95. clouds


96. Detective stories... i wanted to be a detective once :)


97. Perry Mason


98. Harry Potter


99. Sidney Sheldon


100. my brother


101. 5.30 to 6.30pm on the terrace...the birds returning homeward & the sunset
     

there are 101 things on the list(count n see if u dont believe)

shall think of somemore to add on :)

1/4 Life Crisis

A little something i dug out of my sent folder....

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you
didn't know and may not like,you start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people
you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at wat ur studyin or ur job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel
alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but
soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better.

Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you're doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.

Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that every one reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. maybe this might have helped someone feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion...

Its called "Quarter-life Crisis." nothing is constant......except change. wats life without a few risks?
keep playin the game!